Today I make the phone call to the fertility clinic. I am one who over analyzes EVERYTHING in my life and I think I have played out hundreds of ways the appointment is going to go. There are just a lot of questions that come up as we start going deeper into this battle... Should we set a timeline for how long we should try this before trying to adopt? Do we first try medicated cycles again or just go right for the IUI? Are they going to want to do surgery first before anything on the blocked tube? What if we use all our money up, get nothing in return, and then don't qualify to adopt because we're too poor? Or, what if we use all our money up, get pregnant with triplets on the last procedure and can't afford daily living expenses because we have no money? Am I or my hubby going to be able to live with the insane person I know I will become with the loads of medications and hormones?
That's the tip of the iceberg people. I know that there is a plan and that everything happens for a reason, I've been through some pretty crappy stuff as a testament to that. I just pray that I'll be able to TRUST and have FAITH and feel BLESSED through all of this!
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